Mine varies from like 4 to -5, with random flucturations into -7 to -8. I’d say it averages out at like -1.

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    When it comes to financial stuff, probably a 7/10. I had piano lessons, riding lessons, summer camp, etc. I honestly have a lot of fond memories of all that stuff. When it comes to abuse, probably -7. Lots of physical violence, screaming and yelling, threats to kill my animals, threats to kill me, threats for them to kill themselves, constant criticism about literally everything, and having to walk on eggshells my entire childhood and living in a constant state of extreme stress because I never knew when things would blow up and I would get my ass kicked for something random like not setting the table correctly.

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      Lots of physical violence, screaming and yelling

      threats to kill me

      constant criticism about literally everything, and having to walk on eggshells my entire childhood and living in a constant state of extreme stress

      Omg I feel this comment. That’s about how I feel during my -7 to -8 moments. Thank you for sharing, I kinda feel less alone now.

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        You definitely don’t need to feel alone, there are legions of us out there. Our experience is not uncommon. I’m sorry that you had to go through that. I hope you can find some peace, and that you can reconcile (if desired) with your parents. It took a long time, but I eventually did and things are a lot better now.