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  • Zugyuk@lemmy.worldtoAutism@lemmy.worldExactly how I felt
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    2 months ago

    I was diagnosed at 39, and the most frustrating part was that when I shared it with my mom, her response was “well duh”

    The years of bullying from “friends” and family all condensed into one flippant dismissal

    Things make more sense now: why I left my childhood birthday parties at the start, why my “friends” stole from me, the years of being bullied by my family

    I can’t go back, but I can get angry at myself. I have always been the easiest person to pick on












  • My dad, my brother(13) and I (16) were on a resort scuba dive (we borrow their gear, and get a ride on their boat, and follow their leader during the dive). Descending down a line, with my dad following the dive lead, then me, then my brother.

    About 60 feet deep, I see my dad jerk suddenly, followed by a bunch of bubbles. I see him grab his octopus… Another spasm and more bubbles.

    I watch as he swims down to the dive leader, and grabs his octopus, taking in and releasing a breath. He signals to dive lead he needs to surface. Dive lead grabs his octopus and replaced it with my dad’s original regulator… Another spasm, and he begins emergency surfacing. My brother and I follow. Dive lead has a Merry dive all alone.

    At the surface, we find that the rubber bits on my dad’s equipment (regulator, and octopus) had deteriorated, and broken at depth. He had lungs full of water, and spent the next half hour barfing and coughing it up.

    That’s about all I got, still brings me to tears twenty some odd years later to just think about it