• Case@lemmy.world
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    1 day ago

    I can’t. Literally can’t.

    I will not fall asleep unless I spend some time unwinding first. Preferably alone.

    No, not a masturbation reference, but I just need some quiet and not have to remember every little social rule that no one ever explained to any extent, at least to me, seems like others have an idea though.

    Its a time to let go of social anxiety build up.

    Coworkers make the anxiety worse, friends too, my wife as well. It builds up and I need a couple hours by myself to let that fade before I have a chance of sleeping, even with my meds, some of which are prescribed simply to knock my ass out.

    Then again, as a teenager, I stayed up 9 days straight before a doctor snowed me and I crashed. No, it wasn’t some attempt, it was straight insomnia - it sucked tremendously. Also, no, not coke, being “snowed” on an EEG (brain waves) means the medication has caused such a response in the brain, you’re just getting the EEG equivalent to static on an untuned channel, so I have issues with sleep, and have since childhood.