I know exactly how you feel. Both the indecision, confusion even, over simple choices and the sense of sinking in quicksand - or better yet, as you say it, grasping for sand. I feel that often, both in terms of smaller moments and bigger-picture life direction stuff. And I also hate attention, so I hate birthdays.
I wish I had good advice, or could tell you that it will get better, but at least know that I know how you feel. I know it’s not worth much, but you’re not alone.
Yes. I hate birthdays, mine and others’. I hate receiving gifts and I hate being in the spotlight, and having to act differently towards others for one particular day of the year for no reason trips me up. If I appreciate another person I will show it consistently, not just on one token day of the year. The whole thing feels awkward and makes me act awkward.
“Ah Chosen One, I see you are still roaming our village like a salmon swimming freely in mating season. Tell me, how come the plants of dark soul in my garden remain unpruned?”
(…) Foley was once worth $1.9 billion, according to Bloomberg, but left the company with a net worth of $225 million.
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The ex-Peloton chief was forced to downsize twice—including selling a $55 million East Hampton waterfront home and uprooting his family.
Though Foley has lost much of his fortune, the ordeal has not extinguished his ambition. Within a year of resigning from the top job at Peloton, he had raised $25 million for his new venture, a direct-to-consumer rug company called Ernesta.
You know, my heart is not exactly bleeding for the guy. Nobody should even have a $55 million residence in the first place, fucking hell. Also, being left with only $225 million is hardly losing all your money, is it?
…it’s absolutely incredible that Boeing wouldn’t have figured this out by now(…)
Is it really that incredible, though? It’s Boeing after all.
Common Meatball Ron L.
Would be a great feature, trying to follow ongoing discussion in a thread you’ve already visited is annoying currently.
Charline Picon won gold in Rio and silver in Tokyo in the old windsurfing format. After they changed to the new IQfoil style boards for this Olympics she switched sports to 49er (two man dinghy), completely starting from scratch - including having to learn how to work as a two person team.
She ended up taking bronze! These competitors blow my mind.
I’m in a similar boat too, but I don’t have any advice either sadly. I’ve been struggling with managing hyperfixations my whole life too so all I can offer is sympathy. The switching off issue is especially rough and has been ruining my sleep my whole life.
I can’t use weed medically sadly since my country is insanely archaic in terms of drug policy, but hopefully it will change some day. I’m glad some people out there get some relief.
There is a separate timeline out there where Bernie beat Trump in 2016 and we didn’t have to go through any of this shit. I hope the me in that timeline realizes how lucky he is.
I still feel like a bit of an imposter when seeking help, as I am very high functioning, and can pass as quite intelligent in most settings, and working at a job where I often encounter low functioning and even non verbal poung people, its hard to feel like I deserve to ask for help in the first place.
I feel this. I was also diagnosed as an adult and I also pass well. The first time telling my friends about my then-new diagnosis was met with the reaction “what, no you’re not!” and I’m still mentally affected by that conversation. Dealing with guilt and imposter syndrome type feelings is tough. I don’t really have any advice but I know how you feel, at least.
Are you familiar with Bethesda games? The best way to describe it is that it’s a Bethesda game that sacrifices what makes Bethesda games great (the handcrafted open world) in exchange for an illusion of scale and scope by way of procedural generation.
What you’re left with is mediocre writing, boring characters and uninteresting exploration of copy-pasted points of interest.
Yeah, that’s pretty much my experience, except it only gets harder to actually drift off the older I get.
Some nights, I do “count sheep”, but with lists…
I’ve tried lots of “counting sheep” variations, but most are too boring for my ADHD brain to be able to maintain for longer than a minute. It’s really hard to find something I’m interested in enough to be able to focus on, but not so much that thinking about it actually keeps me awake.
I think so? I especially wish I could do it at night, it’s so hard to fall asleep when your brain refuses to turn off. I am so envious of people who can just shut their eyes and have no thoughts and fall asleep in a couple of minutes.
Sounds about right.
Why is this so relatable.
I think this is a pretty good summary overall. I’d like to supplement some things:
Category 1 viewers also contain people who want to vicariously live through someone else and experience their favourite game again for the first time. They tend to stick around only for a specific game, and will move on after the playthrough is over.
Category 2 also contains viewers who watch the streams as a pure entertainment product, more akin to watching a comedian. They’re mostly interested in the banter the streamer provides. Many viewers of Northernlion and Jerma fit this description.
If you ever figure it out, let me know.
You guys have self control? I just start ranting if my special interests come up.
The Hindus were right all along, this is the Kali Yuga.