Honestly fair this is just my thing, i’m a moral objectivist i think meanings comes from being right, so i just live however i can and resist whenever i can

I admit i’m all sorts of screwed up lmao, when i’m not pushing back against evil i just feel weird now, like i’m overly enjoying life, which means i’m making roots in it, which means i can be controlled through them, and i just kick in to limit or assess how much dependence i’ve built and if i’d be ready to let go of it to be good if i had to or not

One weird thing though is nobody can understand this way of thinking, they just get confused like i did something unexpected when it’s the most logical thing to do, being part of an evil machine has just been too normalized and it’s why i look insane to everyone

No i just name my accounts whatever is on my mind(thought idea sensation feeling) at the time to make it impossible to trace them across platforms, i was just thinking of food back then

Leverage can come in many ways, dependence, reliance, expertise, friendships, anything really

I’m part of a community with very niche skill and i’ve always hated hierarchies but i play along if they prove to be good or fair, i climbed up the ladder through expertise and i practically had no friends in it cause i’m anti social, eventually i was told if i wanted to progress more i should take a look into the inner circle and i did

It was all connections, i thought this is where experts would be but no it’s just more same level skilled people that are just really really well connected in this circle, i have no connections and nobody knew me so the logical thing would be to hang on to someone and be their pet lol, we’re in autism community though and because i think gaining position through connections is corrupt i didn’t kiss anyone’s ass when they kept offering them

For some reason they don’t like this though which doesn’t make sense and eventually hierarchy needed to be established through legitimate means, expertise, i won, most people would already avoid me or talking to me at all costs to not be kicked out of the circle but after this it turned malicious and they wanted to get rid of me, i’m talking a really niche community and skill so this was a closed closed circle

How do you get rid of people in a system? You abuse it and swear everyone with you into silence, everything actively offered to everyone is excluded to me, everything available to me specifically is now only accessible privately, this is the public community system not like private it’s the standard one, so i called them out, all swore into silence, their self interest is with the system, and now the system is for their self interest as well

So i left started my own system by now i’m even more skilled than most of the inner circle and i offered skills to people for free while telling them exactly what took place, leverage here is connections which i normally avoid lmao, and the expertise, they’re leverage because they can’t be taken away or are costly to do so, you keep this up for months(nearing multi years now) self gain is not the goal it’s change like i said, you offer the skills and you keep improving

Eventually the leverage of connections and expertise becomes so dangerous it has to be confronted and it comes at the cost of concessions of self gain for me, i refused it i was not even considering it, the cost has to be the system, which no one would allow, but the good thing is, only one of us benefits from stability because again i do not have interest in self gain and eventually system is going to be forced to change

That’s what leverage means, anything that moves people away from the system(VPN, EV, word of mouth) and can’t be stopped is leverage

Stopping it through force sets precedence for arming against it(boycotts, shaming…) and again the system does not benefit from instability

By the way they still refuse to allow me in, got all other similar inner circles in on exclusion, targeted all my connections and me with harassment and just spread lies about me and were forced to purge and stretch the circle many times to keep it intact but everyone(much large outer circle) openly knows it has bad reputation not even for the original reasons just for their own demands, the inner circle now isn’t bothered and are more comfortable with open threats and power abuse against anyone and are banking on the monopoly over the skill and the outer circle’s dependence on it, i’m working on an alternative though and when they knew about it they just banned me from any platform they could pressure with the monopoly, the alternative is another leverage they can’t control so they have to confront me and the change

Idk, maybe the bad reputation(i’m talking going from leaders hard-working rare -> lazy corrupt common) was too much for them because everything i do i make sure it can’t be undone plus changes to the system(inner circle goes from picking it’s members to outer circle choosing them) was what made them unwilling to ever tolerate me in power

Edit: for this example what i mean by not joining another system is i was offered to take part in other circles cause they also have competition with the original one but i’d have to do it while degraded and constantly needing to prove myself, and you can do that for the sake of taking down circle1 but then who’s going to deal with circle2 which has the same issues, you have to be ok with just doing your own thing solo and everyone coming to contact with you being targeted or controlled when you resist systems, which is super cool i’m not gonna lie

I completely agree humans build these systems specifically with self interest in mind

The way i learned to live with it is to aim for creating leverage and renting it for a change in the system that strips the self gaining aspects from it

If i can’t get leverage like that i just avoid the system and if i can’t or already part of it i resist it every chance i get, systems are upheld cause they’re efficient, and they’re efficient because i allow them to be

Obviously all of this comes at the cost of your own self gain before anyone else’s so coming to terms that your purpose in life is just to fix the world, that’s the first crack in the system, you’d never do it willingly the system has to engineer your failure first

This makes you enemy of so many people because all communities are systems of self interest so even if you wanted to you’ll have to work on that change while being everywhere and belonging nowhere, or you’ll end up as part of one

What the actual fuck

Crazy life choices to go work in the US at this time in history, Stay safe out there

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You’re only ever going to find matches for this in places that lack suffering, leftists in struggle never compromise in for stability, struggling inclusivity movements never isolate people, religions under antisemitism never enforce their beliefs, countries in crisis never infight over identity, competitors in dying or new activity never indulge or tolerate unfairness

Struggle is what kills wokeness, it brings people back to the roots of their beliefs, i think there’s nothing more pure than niche communities because they stand behind the principles that brought them all there 10 times out of 10 or they end up dissolving

There’s no woke groups, there’s only woke individuals in groups

Woke individual leftists that vote fascists into power due to believing electoralism can never fail making their actions valid, going against empowering the people principles leftists stand for

Woke individual LGBTQ members that scrutinize any work not favoring their agenda with belief it’s done to normalize it making their actions valid, going against principles of inclusivity the movements stands for

Woke individual religious members that advocate for enforcing their beliefs and traditions on others or turning blind eye to violence from their members with the idea that spreading the belief is the right thing, going against the aspect of free will and choice advocated by the religions

Woke individual nationalists that target minorities in their own country as not fitting the right identity or image the country stands for for the sake of establishing unity, going against national pride with all it’s diversity of culture that “nationalism” stands for(i have to put this one in quotes as the word’s meaning has been completely ruined from this by now)

Woke individual competitors that in pursuit of being the best at an activity decide to result to cheating or sabotaging other competitors for the sake of breaking records and making the competitive scene more competitive, going against the fairness principles that those activities and competitors in it stood for

This is how i see the word woke, nothing to do with any group, any title, any identity, i see it as individuals who violate the principles they claim to stand for, and it always gets done with the belief it’s right, the “woke” in my definition are people i have to actively disassociate from their identities no matter how hard they try to make the two inseparable

People joining movements without shred of struggle to support them and after they had already succeeded

For me woke people are privileged loud members of communities that are missing basic principles those communities stand for, and you can find them absolutely everywhere in every grouping ever, nationality based grouping, religious based grouping, ideology based grouping, i see all those as “woke” in my view

I don’t make my family or friends my therapist i think that’s awful thing to do not only for me but for them too not that they’re qualified to be one to begin with

When is the eventually going to come and why single out autists by it if it’s environment related, i’m working just fine as a closed system and what gets dealt to me from outside world is not my fault because i’m different, i don’t see your point

Feel free ask me questions though i get the feeling you just don’t have good context here o/

No i don’t think it would cause i’m not sick, i think questioning obvious things and refusing to buy into social norms or standards isn’t a sickness but a choice, also i have no credentials to talk about this so take it as uneducated opinion but i don’t think pills are right way to handle autism or adhd rather lifestyle change, surrounding yourself with right people and right environment

The fact you see it like this makes me feel you’re not autistic, maybe even enjoying company with people

When’s the last time you said something normal and had everyone smirk at the same time or pause for awkwardly long moment just for every following interaction of you to be made a joke in the group or to be isolated or not invited from any meetings as to not ruin it

I don’t really know how you see the world but it can’t be that positively if you don’t value respect, so i only hang out with kind people, that yes also do the same awkward reactions but followed with care and love instead, which makes it feel forced at times because it’s the only type of reaction, kindness

Not having to consider all of this is much more mentally calming and not as tiresome to deal with from managing people’s feelings as well, and i’ve grown to only see human interaction as bodily need to satisfy every now and then rather than something to look forwards to

Diary and reading books

I do not need human contact anymore

It depends how you use the word, i see it as people being forced to do something they don’t want to do, you don’t say “I blackmailed you into buying a better product”, in same way i don’t say “Trump was blackmailed to be corrupt and make a fortune out of market manipulation”

The fast movement and lack of sight is what’s scary about them, snakes tarantulas will move away from you and do it slowly, cockroach will run in any direction at full speed when startled unless you explicitly startle them with large thud near them, otherwise they might dash full speed towards you

Also social upbringing making them out to be some great threat and fact we’re way more common to see them than the other actually dangerous creatures

If you’ve been using AI for a while now you’ll have grown to depend on their convenience, effectiveness aside, the time saved on simple tasks makes them very appealing to just rely on

Once you stop using them you’ll notice how much time and effort goes into those simple tasks, even just writing a post and finding information on a subject takes minutes, you’ll notice it immediately and you’ll get withdrawal because of the friction in manual work

So keep in mind that you’re doing this to regain back agency over your life be it in information you gather or work you create and fight temptation to pick the easy way that chains you with dependency

I thought the IDF committed it

Happiness to me is having a meaning to my life, i couldn’t find a point to living for myself that was logical so i just gave up living for it and decided the only reason to live is to be morally good

So now happiness is being a good person, every now and then i’d get unexplainably sad or angry if i’m too happy for self interest reasons because life lost meaning for a moment

You’ll get withdrawal symptoms probably so fight the temptation to use it!

Yes eventually, the only way it won’t be is if it’s physically impossible to replicate a human brain, i don’t believe that’a the case

Fuck AI nonetheless, it needs regulation not hope